Back to Houston
October 6, 2013 in Lymphoma by Jeffry Reed
Leaving in the morning……
Will be there for two days. More tests and more chemo. I’ve lost 13 lbs this week. I have not been this sick since April. I’ve thrown up and well……had it coming out at both ends.
I’ve had lots of comments on how healthy I’ve looked while on chemo because of my weight. That was all steroids. Now I think they found a dose that makes me look like a cancer patient. I’ve been miserable all week. Many people say hang in there because it’s so easy to say.
If Dr. Kevorkian would have come by this week I would have let him hook me up. I know I have to be strong and fight but damn. Anybody want to trade places for a week to give me a break?
Saturday the nausea finally left but another symptom showed up. I’m white as a ghost. I passed out in the bathroom and broke the toilet seat………between no food and no blood I’m a mess. Today was better but I’m still pretty white. I’m pretty sure I’m going to be given some transfusions tomorrow…..my head looks grey and pasty and my hands are so white I could scare the kids on Halloween passing out candy without dressing up.
This was by far one of the worst weeks. No more chemo pills for two weeks so maybe that will help? I dunno…..This shit better be working and shrinking my tumor because I’m giving it all I have. There isn’t anything left unless they just knock my ass out in a hospital.
Anyhow……I’ll try to update again while in Houston tomorrow.
Best wishes. My husband is a bit “farther” along in the process. Please prepare for the transplant. So many risks, but the Mucositis is nothing to take lightly and perhaps after everything now , the most “difficult” and painful part. Help yourself manage it now. Much light and healing energy to you!
Hey Jeff im still here reading the blog. My GLP buddy, im sorry you are going through this and I wont even try to relate. I will guarantee coffee and dinner when you make it through everything. I just got married on the 5th of Oct too.
Your an inspiration honestly. Just having the strength to do this blog is more than most people accomplish even when they are 100% healthy!! And I see your still posting on GLP as well
Thats awesome.
Ill talk to you soon
Dan
praying for you man I know personally how hard it is. Have you discussed your depression with your onc? I think that is a good idea, don’t you? sending you hugs
DM
Well damn—– I am really sorry you have to be so sick with this, I know you will fight and hopefully win this battle. I am in Arkansas now in the process of building and living in Dans workshop that we sectioned off and made a kitchen and living area space. Out bedroom is out 19 foot camper and I have no electricity “yet, this is coming soon, but no running water for awhile. So I have no computer– which you know I miss cause I am so good at it—-having to use my I-pad . Was sitting here and your face just popped in my thoughts and I realized I had not said hello to you for awhile– so Hello Jeff. After reading your post, I feel pretty lucky in life. You make me appreciate what I have, thank you that. We don’t always remember that until someone you care about gets a kick n the rear—I will be thinking about you and keeping strong hopes that all will turn out ok.
I have been out of touch for a couple of weeks. My 90 yr old mother in law passed away.
At least if you’re as white as a sheet you won’t have to dress up for Halloween!!! Just put on some black paint on the face and go as Casper!!! Love ya man!!
Stay strong and Ill keep you in my prayers….
hey jeff, I still continue to pray for you and your family. There are no words to understand what your going thru but God can bring you out of this and heal you completely. I am sorry I haven’t texted you or left comments but I do keep up with you…lots of love!!!!!
HI! I haven’t kept in touch…..life is crazy, however, I thinka bout you and pray for you daily!I miss your bear hug!
I think everyone say Hang in there, because there isn’t a lot more to say, other than we Love you.
sounds like hell.
Hang in there, my friend ! You can make it through this ! Much love and a hug sent out to you !
Hugs to you, Jeff.
Hey bud! Wishing you the best this trip! You sounded so down this AM and now I understand why! I’m not going to say stay strong because I know you are and doing the best you can! You are always in my prayers and know how much we all think of you and of course miss you! Keep doing eveything you’re already doing and in the end you WILL win!
Thoughts and Love Jeff!
R