January 14, 2014 in Lymphoma by Reta Reed

Why is it that we too often overlook blessings that are right in front of us? We’re looking too far ahead? We’re “busy”? I’ve been terribly guilty of this. But I am so fortunate that those blessings I had overlooked have not abandoned me and have allowed me to finally discover them. What the hell have I been doing all this time? Taking care of Jeff during his illness was a small part of our 12 years together. I can’t use that as an excuse. I’m pretty shy and reserved (unless you get a couple margaritas in me) and keep to myself. I didn’t usually seek social situations. I have always felt a little socially awkward. While Jeff could talk to anyone, even he preferred staying home to partying. When you’re response to party or function invitations is usually no, soon the invitations stop coming. We used to make excuses to stay home. Now, I look forward to seeing friends. I’ll make time, dammit! I have delighted in reconnecting with those who… were overlooked. I’m embarrassed and feel I was perhaps rude in not acknowledging my blessings.

Friends, thank you for hanging around until this wallflower got her act together (somewhat)! Jeff is still doing great things. He is still helping me grow.