The Kicker

April 21, 2013 in Lymphoma by Jeffry Reed

So I don’t know if this is chemo sickness….but I feel weird inside.

We have all seen football. We know before the kicker goes out to score the winning kick or get the extra point he is on the sideline kicking the ball into a net.

The full force of his professional ability is used, the ball takes the full brunt yet goes nowhere. Into the net time and time again.

I feel like I want to throw up, but I can’t. It feels like it’s just being pushed into the net time after time. I want to gag, but can’t. I want to expel something from inside but nothing will come. The kicker just takes the ball and kicks it into the net time after time…….

And I’m fatigued. I’ve done nothing but sleep and eat all day and I’m tired. It’s amazing to think about being so lazy you are tired from that.

I’ve managed to get up a few times but I’m tired….It’s not anemic tired. It’s not lack of sleep tired.

It’s like somebody mopped the floor with me. My 7 year old son could take full advantage of me.

It’s not too bad…..the anti nausea medicine worked last night, it will work tonight I’m sure. Bless all the people before me that made technology available today in 2013 so those that go through chemo now can go through it easier.