This time last year

June 15, 2014 in Lymphoma by Reta Reed

Before I get too sappy, let me say Happy Father’s Day to all the wonderful dads out there! And also to the moms who pull double duty as both mother and father. Raising kids is a wonderful honor, responsibility, challenge, three-ring circus… and I feel blessed to have three awesome little (though one is not so little)  humans to call my own. They sure make life interesting.

Last year for Mother’s Day, Jeff enlisted the help of our dear friend, Ginny, to make sure I had a gift on Mother’s Day because he was too sick to get it himself. Last year was Jeff’s last Father’s Day. Would we have celebrated differently if we had the tiniest clue it would be his last? Hell yes. I’m sure we would have done lots of things differently. We had such high hopes.

So if I’m not thinking about what was going on this time last year, I think about the firsts happening this year. Travis’s first Father’s Day without his father. Many first holidays to come with one less person to celebrate. November and December will be especially hard, but I don’t dread it. I accept it, though I’ll still try to make the best of it. I know that pain accompanies comfort and the pain will pass. For now, it just needs to “be”.