Trying
May 27, 2014 in Lymphoma by Reta Reed
I got a tattoo on the inside of my left wrist that says “choose happy”. I believe you can choose how you react to whatever is thrown at you and I wanted a reminder to myself to choose happy. It takes so much energy to choose otherwise. However, I’m finding it hard to realize my mantra lately. I find myself blaming myself for much of my kids’ shortcomings. They’re my responsibility after all. Jeff said I was too soft. My ex blames me too. I never could stand up to my ex. Seems my girls can’t either. I feel so powerless. Like such a failure. It’s not a good feeling.
Parents have a some of influence on how a child turns out. But, kids will sometimes do what every they think is best, or want to do. I had the best parents every. My father always had a job, worked hard; was a Deacon in the Baptist Church. My mother was the Newton County Clerk ( for like 20 + yrs). They always treatment just and fair. And loved me. But, at 16 yr I borrowed my dads truck & run away to Montana. To be a cowboy. LOL.. My parents track me down and ask me to come home. They took me back and never gave me a hard time about it. They had nothing to do with me leaving. I just “ Knew Better” than them. LOL. But, I got a college degree; joined the Army, done 20 yrs reserve time. But, if they had not taken me back there is no telling where I would be today, probably jail. I hope this helps some. Take Care. Your Friend, James AKA “Cow Poke”..
I love the “Choose Happy”. I read the other two post before this one and they are correct. Just keep doing what you’re doing. I think your doing a fantastic job. As the old saying goes; ” Hang in there”. Sometimes when I’m ” Hanging in There” I feel like my feet are kicking in the air, and I’m hanging on to the edge of a cliff. LOL.. Today is Friday the 13, and I chose to be Happy Today. Take Care..
Also choose caring, loving, smart, beautiful, sassy….you’re whole body would be covered in ink with the awesome qualities and traits you have. Apparently he’s a “ex” for not seeing all you can bring and give!
Reta you are the farthest thing from a failure! One thing I have learned is that even if you read every book and follow every word of advice given, you will always make mistakes at being a parent. There is no right way! Keep doing what you are doing and as you say choose happy!