May 27, 2014 in Lymphoma by Reta Reed

I got a tattoo on the inside of my left wrist that says “choose happy”. I believe you can choose how you react to whatever is thrown at you and I wanted a reminder to myself to choose happy. It takes so much energy to choose otherwise. However, I’m finding it hard to realize my mantra lately. I find myself blaming myself for much of my kids’ shortcomings. They’re my responsibility after all. Jeff said I was too soft. My ex blames me too. I never could stand up to my ex. Seems my girls can’t either. I feel so powerless. Like such a failure. It’s not a good feeling.